Sunday, December 16, 2007,2:24 am
another day passes .
woke up . BENT on not being late for work .
i seriously couldnt face another
"late again uh . next time dock your pay hor"
and that face from roger and fanny =x
lols . and yeahh . dad made us late AGAIN .
BUT this time .
while we were in the car . all giving black face .
he somehow squeezed in a "sorry"
he probably thinks i didnt hear it .
but i did .
and coming from him . i bet it took alot of scraping of thick skin (:
and im thankful.
though i didnt show it at the time.
wasnt late (: but i still run like siao into the room luh .
dont know why .
FINAAAAALLY ! just hope i can keeeep it up in a few hours time .
its 2:30 now . dammit . i should sleeeeeep =x
anyways . today at work was quite ohkay .
me and ranjeeeeta talked gurl stuuff as usual .
funny .
roger can always joke with her but give me attitude ! lols .
moodswinger .
married people are WEIRD with their mooods !
then we talked about relationships .
honestly . conversations with people who are older than you are really different .
like . it takes a whole different angle .
which im not really used to .
its like . you can be yourself .
just the mature self .
and when i DO be myself .
like . not knowing stuff and all . it just gives them more reason so call me a little gurl -.-
like everything i've lived for seems insufficient suddenly.
like so obsolete .
like there's still SO much more .
*sighs
enough of that
then . sooooooon afternoooon shift le .
danial wanted to come to deliver the freeeeee chocolate .
but like so ma fan .
so guilty luh -.-
so of course argue until convince him to keeeep .
siao eh . make me sound like some greedy chocolate-faced asshole .
im not THAT fat ! =x
working afternoon shift was super funny !
talked about all the A stuuff =x
angeline taught me about abortion .
haiis .
i really wonder .
who would have the guts to give it all up ?
and i used to think loving the child was enough to sway the decision .
but they taught me its much more than that .
and sometimes . love really isnt JUST enough .
the idea still sucks though .
it just does .
but . they're much older than me .
so of course got many things i dont understand .
i feeeel as if i have to grow up faster when im with them .
like . cant afford to be so gong =x
but i STILL insist that ron is more childish than me !
heston and i talked about relationships . HAHA .
like how he wooo he ex . and ambitions and all .
its kinda coool he wants to be a pilot.
but maybe he too short ? cant reach the pedal ? =x
we ordered KFC ! woohoo .
angeline treat me cos im broke . HAHAHA .
it was also today i realised .
bernard cant understand chinese .
omg . so paiseh luh .
all this time i thought he didnt reply me cos he acting dao .
i feeel like such an ASSHOLE o.o
yeah . anyways .
met the bellboy junior and we took bus together .
first time i had a real conversation with him .
and he's a oldie toooo luh -.-
met mum and ling at junction8 after work .
shoppping tll midnight ! woooots .
finaaaaaally . siblings back from camp (:
no more solitude ! WOOHOO =x
on the way back in the mrt .
ling and i practically dancing in the train .
trying to make mum laugh .
the uncle sitting opposite us laughing like siao !
LOL . it was so eff-ing funnny .
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH.
tonight . i can admit .
im turning to the emo side.
ever since that whole thing
nothing seems dependable anymore .
im scarred from everything .
and now this .
as if i neeed another blow to my self esteeem .
have you ever felt like a back up ?
like the one people go to ONLY if they have nobody else ?
like being put on a shelf.
just sitting there .
totally redundant .
put there only for god-knows-what reason .
ohwell . maybe life just isnt meant to work out for me eh .
im destined to be a loner for life .
WOOHOOO .
ohkay . enough emo-ing
on a not-so-brighter note.
heston said this week .
hahaha . i go quote .
damn all these beautiful girls says:
anyway, i have to thank you for this 1 week
you have revived my teenage memories
being pure and innocent and always bursting with energy
so maybe being the young one amongst them was God's purpose .
let him have a week to relive the past.
the days of yesteryears .
which im living in now.
im grateful and all
but what if i DONT want to be pure and innocent and always bursting with energy ?
as youu can seee where it has gotten me .
ah. maybe this is God's purpose .
i will continue to pray for what he has in store .
ladidada ~
OHKAY . ENOUGH EMO (:
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